Before I start writing the main bulk of this post, I’d like to preface it by saying that as of writing this, I’m currently very tired, but I’ll still end up being somewhat humorous anyway because that’s just how I be and there’s not a lot I or anyone else can do about it. 👍
So let’s get started.
Remember when, at the end of my last post, I said that I’m not here to predict the future? Well I somehow managed to prove myself right without even trying because it turns out Callum didn’t show up today. Chances are that he won’t be here for the rest of the week but again, I won’t try to predict anything. (Watch me prove myself right by having him show up tomorrow.) Either way, upon entering Office 3, I’m met once again by Jamie, but this time additionally by two new faces, those of Ben and Pete. I started my day by having my task for the day explained to me by Pete, which involved handling a hypothetical scenario regarding a potential client looking for a website. Basically, makeshift social interaction. As I mentioned practically right at the beginning of my last post, I am awful at handling social interaction, and today I came to learn that that includes makeshift interaction as well. I had to write an e-mail to the hypothetical client as part of my task, and I’m fairly sure I spent about a minute actually writing it up and about ten trying to pluck up the courage to press send, despite the fact that the only person I was sending the e-mail to was sat literally right next to me. When it comes to talking to people, especially clients/customers of some kind, my brain goes something like “bro I am out of here”. Despite this, apparently the e-mail I did end up sending was pretty much perfect, so like… I’ll take that as a win. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Either way, after the first few hours of my day were done, me and the lads got up and had a walk around Lidl. I didn’t get anything for the two simple reasons of “I literally had my lunchbox with a suitably sized dinner in it”, and “I literally can’t buy anything at a shop by myself because anxiety go BRRRRR and I’d be panicking over it for several days afterwards”. Once we were done in Lidl, we went back to the Business Centre and sat down in Office 3 for about two seconds before thinking “you know what let’s go sit outside” and dipping again, sitting outside to eat our lunch. I must admit that I had quite a nice time, occasionally chipping into the conversation either when I was asked something or to make a casual joke before immediately not saying anything for another ten minutes out of shyness. (I know they’re nice but I can’t help it. 😭)
Anyway, we went back inside after we’d all eaten, and it’s at this point that I must acknowledge the fact that we had some more absolute 🔥 FIRE 🔥 beats, consisting of everything from slick guitar to the most HYPE JAPANESE MUSIC. I’m an absolute sucker for Japanese music. I love the stuff and I’m actually trying to learn the language (and how to commit to something for longer than two picoseconds (that’s 0.000000000002 seconds / two trillionths of a second)). That and I like anime. 👀
Now, with the positives out of the way, I should bring up the fact that I struggle to concentrate. It’s just how my brain works. So let’s do some maths together. What happens when you take someone who struggles to concentrate, and who really doesn’t know squat about what they’re doing, put them in front of a computer for six hours, and have them be too shy and anxious to ask anyone for any form of assistance whatsoever? If you said “not a lot gets done”, you’d be absolutely correct! 😀 In all seriousness though, I did get something done. I sent that e-mail I mentioned earlier, wrote some alright plans for what could come next in the hypothetic scenario I was given, as well as do my best (I’m trying out here) on a quote. Outside of that though, my brain kinda went yeet and stopped functioning properly (or rather, what’s normal for me, which let’s be real, probably isn’t what most people call “properly”).
Overall, I have to admit that today has helped me realise that in practice, working / work experience at Cosmic is a lot more office-oriented than I was initially anticipating, which may have thrown me off, but also contributed to me realising that, at least at the moment, office working and by extension working for someone else is pretty out of reach for me with my current skillset. There’s definitely a lot more in-person interaction than I initially thought in office working, especially in the environment I find myself in. That and the fact that I know a lot less about web design than I was initially aware of.
Not to anyone’s discredit of course! And I don’t mean to say that I don’t appreciate or am not grateful for the opportunity I’ve been given to have this experience, because I am. Experiencing something for the first time can help you to either confirm that something’s right for you, or realise that it maybe isn’t entirely. I’ve been determined for a while to turn my passion, my development of video games, and therein my brand AccurateFox Games, into my work, and by that, I mean working for myself. And while work experience at Cosmic so far has helped me learn new things, it’s definitely also strengthened that plan.
I’m informed that tomorrow will involve a couple of Teams meetings, which, as you may have guessed by now, I’m kind of dreading, but I guess we’ll just see what happens. Again, I’m not here to predict the future. In case it wasn’t obvious, I’m not good at that.
If anyone’s reading this, welcome to word 1,000 of this post, but also, I’m gonna bring in some brownies on Friday (tomorrow at this point as I’m writing this).
-Kit (they/them)
P.S. Yes, AccurateFox is one word, that wasn’t a typo.